As I'm sitting here pondering my giant mess of clothes and things that I need to pack up for Paris, the uncertainty of whether I will be picked up from the airport, and whether Sasha will have accreditation, and whether I'll have a place to train before the tournament once I get there, I just have to remember... to forget it all for now (except for the packing), and instead reminisce on my experience here in Belarus.
Last night I went out for a beer with some Canadian and Belarus friends, and we had a good time just hanging out and talking. Tonight evidently we're going to try and put together costumes since its halloween.
The camp has been a total whirlwind, and to be quite honest, much more stressful than I imagined. The straight truth is that I have been fencing quite horribly the whole time and getting very anxious and stressed about it. But as the last day came to a close, I know that that whole time I've really been pushing myself to try and start each new day positively, I've been trying to push through my issues on the strip and with my coach (due to said stressful behavior), and in the end I think I came out the other side realizing that as an athlete in these kinds of situations, all you can do is stay strong, stay faithful in your true abilities, and continue moving forward. I know that if I walk into worlds with the correct mindset and having taken care of my body, I can beat anyone in the world. In this fact I am ABSOLUTELY positive, and season by season my results have shown that I CAN and I'm FIERCE and INTELLIGENT. If my mind believes it enough, the body will follow... ten years of training is not to scoff at.
In terms of Belarus as a Country, honestly I've had a very good experience with the people here and the city, and the sport village. The only thing I consistently could complain about is the food, but thats just one small thing, and honestly, I didn't have to eat as much of it as I did. Beautiful city, nice people, my russian came in handy, great weather, a supportive coach, and my own room.
What more to ask for?
Now its on to Paris in the morning, and I'm excited to be there. World championships in Paris is going to be an incredible experience, no matter what the result. Our flight leaves Minsk at 11 am tomorrow, arriving in Paris at 430. I have a room, a bed, and although the cab will cost 50 euro to get there if the organizers don't show (aka Panama didn't send forms), at least I know how to get there. I have my accreditation, room, food, friends and ibuprofin... All I'll need to think about is to be positive and prepare for the competition.
Unfortunately I now realize after 3 tries this internet won't let me upload my pictures to my blog but I'll keep trying later!!