Yesterday

Well, ran into a bit of troble in the 64, and lost. I was extremely disappointed about the result yesterday but slowly realized I'd be fine and am moving on in things anyways. I was proud of how I prepared myself for the bout and although I lost tactical and mental priority felt that I prepared myself the best I could under the current circumstances. I lost mental refocus in the second half, and that was my mistake, which frustrated me afterwards. I kind of made the opposite mistakes that I made in the pools... felt good physically but not patient enough in my actions because of my lack of mental control.

I'm trying to move forward, been talking to multiple people about possibilities for the future, and am feeling like I have more solid options. In other news; I sprained something in my knee again (I think because of lack of consistent training before the championship and lack of rehab.) Today I've been watching mens epee, which I always enjoy. I just plain enjoying being around this level fo fencing. Its very cool to see, and I'm trying to soak it in and be confident in my next venture.

Its been a little hard to explain to panama what happened, (my favorite press question the one time I decided to pick up the phone was "what was your failure yesterday?) I did, though, send an email last night which explained everything to the federation, and I tried to put it in a positive light. the world championships are triple points, so actually I gained 6 points in the world ranking which helped stabilize my ranking for the coming season even though I didn't get what I had hoped (After the championships my world ranking is 24...only dropped one spot!)

Next Goal: My FUTURE, which I know I can make work and feel very positive about.

Love,

Eileen

PS. I'll add some pictures on here of the championships!!